hurt heart

My heart hurts today. I saw little guy at the psych hospital today. Its one thing to get filled in by email how he is doing, and its another to see him in person. He did want to talk to me which is different, since he refused to see his teacher or tracker- both of whom he has a closer relationship with, since I only see him 1-2 times a month. There isn't anything I can do for him right now, and I feel so bad for him. In the meeting we had before hand I was kind of annoyed at the head guy who ran the meeting. I'm sure he is fine, and great at what he does, but the guy was somewhat arrogant and that just gets to me. Probably because I'm a know it all and can't stand others who act that way.



I went from one meeting (a team), to another (staffing), to another (staff), to court (drug), to a home visit. I probably should've gone back to the office to do some paperwork, but I was hungry so I went home instead. Paperwork will still be there tomorrow, thats for sure.



Jamie's dad did have to go back to jail today. The judge revoked his ankle monitoring thingy, he wasn't supposed to be let out any way. He wanted to stay out, as he had some great things lined up, but he didn't do his UA yesterday (said he didn't know, but thats pretty basic drug court stuff) so the Judge wasn't about to let him stay out.



Yesterday I got some logs updated, went to drug court, and had a team meeting for Celest. That didn't go so well. She was upset and it was like talking to a brick wall. We meet, we talk, she says ok, and things get better for a short time, but then we are right back were we were before. I really don't think this adoptive placement is going to work. I hate to think of Celest having another failed placement, but I don't know what else to do.



I'm feeling pretty down tonight, my heart hurts, and I feel like not much difference is made in these families or their kids' lives.